-Just When You Thought I Was Crazy Enough…-
I’m doing a triathlon.
A former client turned friend who moved to Austin called me yesterday and said “let’s do the Austin Triathlon together!”
Without much hesitation, I said “yes!”
Why, you ask?
You see, I feel i’ve wasted too much of my life worrying and holding back from doing the things I really want to do. I have wanted to do a triathlon for over 12 years. I have also wanted to learn to surf for that long too! I learned to snowboard roughly nine years ago, but want to get better at it. I learned to wakeboard six years ago, and ditto!
LIFE’S TOO FREAKIN’ SHORT TO HOLD YOURSELF BACK!
On the triathlon note, why have I never done one? I’ll clue you in. I used to do fitness competitions. They weren’t a positive thing for me because I was obsessive about my training and dieting. It if for this reason that I have never pursued anything much more than 5k races, soccer, and professional women’s football (yes, you read that right, women’s football) since then. The preparation for fitness competitions became a very negative thing for me, because I not only overtrained BIG time, I isolated myself and would eventually become extremely run-down and depressed as a result. In fact, the last two competitions I trained so hard for, I decided not to compete in a week prior to the shows. That last decision was in April of 2001 and was a result of my health. My thyroid had been tanking for over a year, and my body was fighting me. I have been on thyroid meds since May 2001, and although my levels are normalized, I have symptoms of chronic fatigue and am very heat sensitive. My body basically told me to STOP the madness and take better care of myself. Good thing, because I was miserable! Also, at that same time, I was involved in a business deal that turned really bad (fortunately I didn’t lose any money, but I did lose my dream at the time, as the business started because of my vision). My answer? Go back to school! It was like a lightbulb flickered on and I thought “i’ll become a Doctor!” LOL! Pipe dream! I did really well with pre-med coursework and the MCAT, though. Let me tell ya, going back to school at the age of 25 is completely different, especially when you are FOCUSED and not obsessed with working out (as I was in undergrad, hence a few “F”‘s on my transcript which will forever haunt me, lol). So…I shifted my focus from physical to mental. It was nice, but of course I couldn’t find a balance and studied all day long, on top of taking the Princeton Review for the MCAT. I rocked the MCAT, though, but didn’t get one single interview from any school. GPA…go figure. Not meant to be! I busted my as* and proved to myself that I could accomplish a helluva lot in doing this, though, so it was worth it. Even though I amassed more student loan debt as a result, it was worth it.
This brings me to the reasons WHY I want to do a triathlon.
First and foremost, I won’t be doing it for anyone else but MYSELF. In the past, I did a lot of things because I felt they were expected of me. The older i’ve gotten, the more i’ve realized that I should be the only factor in deciding what’s expected of me. Other opinions don’t matter. If I don’t know in my heart and mind that something is right, then I won’t do it. That’s all there is to it! I have finally reached a point in my life where my “inner voice” is able to be heard, versus me blocking it out.
My “inner voice” now says “WHY NOT?” instead of “WHAT IF YOU FAIL?”
Secondly, I have pretty much convinced myself that i’m not meant to do distance running. An Olympic triathlon is a 0.93 mile swim, 24.8 mile bike ride, and 6.2 mile run. So…obviously not only will I be doing some distance running, i’ll be swimming and biking as well! YAY! I am SO ready to eliminate this lame-as* “you can’t do distance running” thought from my brain, because it’s wearing me out! WHY NOT? Why can’t I do it? No reason. I WILL do it! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!
PS, thanks Anna (http://annaruns.blogspot.com/) for telling me that yesterday! 🙂
I am so sick and tired of living life worrying about the itty bitty stuff that really doesn’t matter! I’ve said it before, and i’ll say it again (as well as many times after this, i’m sure): LIFE IS TOO SHORT!
YOUR LIFE IS YOUR’S. LIVE IT FOR YOU. IF YOU HAVE A GOAL IN MIND, GO FOR IT! NEVER LOSE SIGHT OF THAT GOAL, NO MATTER WHO OR WHAT STANDS IN YOUR WAY. IT WILL HAPPEN!
(Yes, I realize I was screaming, lol…DEAL WITH IT!) 🙂
Get ready for updates from my trials and tribulations of training for my first triathlon! Wow…what a tongue twister that is!
The race is Saturday Sept. 7! I will be in Austin that weekend anyway for Labor Day…again, why the hell not? 🙂 Now my friends will just have to hang out and support me that morning instead of packing up to head to the lake…which we will surely do later that day!
Thursday’s workout was a 4.1 mile jog around the LSU lakes…in the mid-afternoon heat (will never do that again, ugh) – 36:24 . I am STUBBORN and had told myself i’d just jog for like 20-30 minutes…go a bit and then turn around and come back. That obviously didn’t happen! Once I make it to the opposite side of the big lake, there’s no turning back. I just kept telling myself to keep jogging…I wouldn’t even walk. Yep, that’s me!